I Am the Swarm

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14+
Release Date
March 25, 2025
ISBN
978-0593623862
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As far back as anyone can remember, the women of the Strand family have been magical.

Their gifts manifest when they each turn fifteen, always in different ways. But Nell Strand knows that her family's magic is a curse. Her mother’s age changes every day; she's often too young to be the mother Nell needs. Her older sister bleeds music and will do anything to release the songs inside her. Nell sees the way magic rips her family apart again and again.

When Nell’s own magic arrives in the form of ladybugs alighting on the keys of her beloved piano, the first thing she feels is joy. The ladybugs are a piece of her, a harmless and delicate manifestation of her creativity. But soon enough, the rest come. Thick-shelled glossy beetles that creep along her collarbone when her piano teacher stares at her. Soft gray moths that appear and die alongside a rush of disappointment. Worst of all are the wasps. It doesn’t matter how deep she buries her rage, the wasps always come. Nell will have to decide just how much of herself she’s willing to lock away to stop them—or if she can find the strength to feel, no matter the consequences.

An intense, emotional read simmering with rage and magic, I Am the Swarm is a captivating YA novel in verse that beautifully speaks to the complicated nature of growing up as a girl.

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I Am the Swarm
(Updated: June 04, 2026)
Overall rating
 
4.7
Plot
 
5.0
Characters
 
4.0
Writing Style
 
5.0
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For as long as the Strand family has existed, the women have received a magical gift on their fifteenth birthdays. When Nell gets the 'gift', at first it's subtle with ladybugs appearing while she's at piano practice. She feels joy. Then the other insects appear. Some are darker than others. Each represents an emotion of Nell. Beetles come whenever she feels shame. Wasps appear no matter how hard she tries to ignore her growing rage. Her other sister, Mora, possesses the gift of hearing music in her blood, a power that brings far more dangerous outcomes. While Nell’s family tries to manage, Nell's anger seethes beneath the surface.

What worked: Beautifully written lyrical tale infused with magic. There is a powerful rawness to this story. What at first appears to be a gift of magic instead has a darkness that other Strand family members either ignore or struggle against. Nell's mother's age changes with her emotions. The more she handles the difficulties in her family, the older she becomes. Pain and overbearing guilt have her regress back to a teenager. Nell's older sister's ability to hear music in her blood leads her to cut her body to release the music. An aunt's means of dealing is moving away from family, and she limits her contact by phone. Her father gets busy with his work.

Nell’s emotions are mirrored by the swarm of insects that encircle her, only to perish shortly after. Within, she is consumed by a deep anger over her mother’s apathy towards her and the sorrow of watching her older sister drift away. She even tries to be intimate with the new boy at her school to ignore her true feelings. In her phone contacts, she lists him as Antidote. Not by his name.

Multi-generational trauma is filled with secrets that no one wants to discuss. I was captivated by this intense novel and Nell's journey to understand her mystical ability, which seems more like a burden than a blessing.

Mora's stay at an institution is difficult for the whole family. I love how the author can show the raw emotions through poetry.

One stanza I loved:

Every girl.
Needs her anger

Unique twist on mental illness and the girl who struggles to give voice to her magical gift.
Good Points
1. Beautifully written lyrical tale infused with magic.
2. Unique twist on mental illness
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